the tension and the terror by straylight run

all the boys voices cracking
oh, the moaning half tones
come summertime, we're all the same age here
all the tension and the terror
thin limbed gorgeous green eyes smiling
and i'm going straight to hell
all the possibility and promise just weighs on me so heavily
and i try but i'm not convincing
your lips, they pout and twist
and i die trying just to keep myself from kissing you.
you take in everything with a certainty i envy
it's somehow all i need
just keep me guessing please
darling, all of these awkwardjumpstartstalling conversations
mean much more to me than anything
it comes down to me and you
and whether we're supposed to or not, we still will
we're so much better off than them
all the possibility and promise just weighs on me so heavily...
a look
a laugh
a smile
a second passes by and i regret it
words just aren't right
sometimes i just can't explain
all the ways you devastate me
always on my mind

Walking By --Something Corperate

Your grand dad left home for the circus
He was young just like me, with hope to explore
He married a girl in Virginia
She could swing the trapeze, they could sleep on the floor

Your mother was born in December, on the one sunny day that winter gave up
With warm summer eyes that flickered like fireflies, and she stared at the world
So why do you leave these stories unfinished, my Cheshire cat doorstop with tears in your eyes? And why do you look when you've already found it?
And what did you find that would leave you walking by?

She was raised in a New England village
Then she moved to LA with her firefly stare, and you loved sunset strip when it sparkled
You grew up and you sparkled, but why don't you care?

And why do you leave these stories unfinished,
my Cheshire cat doorstop with tears in your eyes?
And why do you look when you've already found me?
And what did you find that would leave you walking by?

And these nights I get high just from breathing
When I lie here with you I'm sure that I'm real
like that firework over the freeway I could stay here all day
but that's not how you feel

So why do you leave these questions unanswered?
The circus awaits and you're already gone
My Cheshire cat doorstop with fear in your smile,
what makes it so easy for you to be walking by?
And what did I do that you can't seem to want me?
And why do we lie here and whisper goodbyes?
Where can I go that your pictures won't haunt me?
What makes it so easy for you to be walking by?
Walking by

Apart--Late Tuesday

"Growing times" I will say
When I look back on this someday
I'll have come so far from here
All this havoc disappeared

But now I'm distracted by you
I might not be over you
My thinking is wrapped up in you, and I know

I am tired of guessing with you
And I am tired of missing you
When you're not really here
So why do you still tear me apart?

All this doubt that holds me down
Will someday leave and leave me sound
You can't be everything
But what you were was good for me

But now I'm distracted by you
I might not be over you
My thinking is wrapped up in you, and I know.

I am tired of guessing with you
And I am tired of missing you
When you're not really here
So why do you still tear me apart?

From you I'm moving on
But I tarry near you still
Half heartedly I've let go
I'm waiting for the push to know

Lyrics

What hurts the most, is being so close
And having so much to say
And watchin you walk away
Never knowing, what could have been
And not seein that lovin you
Is what I was tryin to do

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Life aint always beautiful
Some days I miss your smile
I get tired of walkin' all these lonely miles

And I wish for just one minute
I could see your pretty face
Guess I can dream, but life dont work that way

But the struggles make me stronger
And the changes make me wise
And happiness has it's own way of takin' its sweet time

No, life aint always beautiful
But I know I'll be fine
Hey, life aint always beautiful
But its a beautiful ride
What a beautiful ride

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I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let got of my pain
To hell with my pride, let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry

let it all out

get it all out

rip it out remove it

don't be alarmed

when the wound begins to bleed

cause we're so scared to find out

what this life's all about

so scared we're going to lose it

not knowing all along

that's exactly what we need

and today I will trust you with confidence

of a man who's never known defeat

but tomorrow, upon hearing what I did

I will stare at you in disbelief

oh, inconsistent me

crying out for consistency

and you said I know that this will hurt

but if I don't break your heart then things will just get worse

if the burden seems too much to bear

remember

the end will justify the pain it took to get us there

and I'll let it be known

at times I have shown

signs of all my weakness

but somewhere in me

there is strength

and you promise me

that you believe

in time I will defeat this

cause somewhere in me

there is strength

and today I will trust you with the confidence

of a man who's never known defeat

and I'll try my best to just forget

that that man isn't me

reach out to me

make my heart brand new

every beat will be for you

for you

and I know you know

you touched my life

when you touched my heavy heart and made it light

--Reliant K

Everything Means Nothing--Late Tuesday

At the drop of a hat I would say yes to your questions
And I would think it great to be your friend
And not only that, I would love to hear your stories always
And hear your laughter from the phone line's other end
It's simply marvelous what I know of you
And of the things I've heard, I like you that much more
And more time with you makes my heart grow fonder
But there's just one small thing that I think I should know

What are you thinking of me?
I haven't figured it out - not yet - not specifically
And everything means nothing, until you put into your words
What you are thinking when you think of me

And I could sure make more guesses than the ways you make me laugh
As to your intentions with me
But all my guesses add up to a whole lot of nothing
So I'll wait for you to divulge to me

What are you thinking of me?
I haven't figured it out - not yet - not specifically
And everything means nothing, until you put into your words
What you are thinking when you think of me

By all means marry. If you get a good wife, you'll become happy. If you get a bad one, you'll become a philosopher.

~Socrates

this is me--faith hill

Yeah,I have my addictions
And keep my share of secrets
And things you'll never see
I get selfish and defensive
And pay too much attention
To my insecurities
Oh I,I'm just like everybody else
I try to love Jesus and myself

I don't know what you believe
Or what you think of what you see
But this is a part of me
What I do and who I am
All of my impurities
Are right here on my sleeve
This is me
This is me

My heart breaks for the homeless
I worry about my parents
And all my bills are late
I'm dealing with the changes
This complicated strangeness
Of seeing life this way
I,I'm just like everybody else
I try to love Jesus and myself

I don't know what you believe
Or what you think of what you see
But this is a part of me
What I do and who I am
All of my impurities
Are right here on my sleeve
This is me
This is me

I laugh at silly movies
Tear up when I see babies
And I'm stubborn as a stone
I criticize my body
I wonder if I'm ready
To ever be alone
Oh I,I'm just like everybody else
I cry,just like everybody else

I don't know what you believe
Or what you think of what you see
But this is a part of me
What I do and who I am
All of my impurities
Are right here on my sleeve
This is me
This is me